Please wait...
Now I think about it, I nearly ever go out on my own. They always drag
me out and they always invite, so I don't do any paying. I am starting
to feel like a leech now.
My great-aunt used to comment about that, she used to go out with a bunch of people for dinner from time to time, and they split the check, but she was the only one who was not a couple and ended up paying twice as much as everyone else.
Now that I think about it, she probably died on purpose so she wouldn't have to do that anymore.
Caution,
Self pity ahead
Do not read this post unless you are made of compassion, I am critically fragile.
1 week ago my life fell apart, shattered by the man I love.
it has been the longest week of my life, a week in which I discovered that the man I loved, and would have married without hesitation had vanished, to be replaced by some shadowy figure who I just don't know, who looked and acted like my love, but wasn't.
A veiled figure living a secret, and sordid life, hidden from me "to protect me."
It didn't tho'
I've lost my wonderful life.
I can never go home, the home I spent over a decade creating is a now a memory loaded with sadness, my beautiful garden, into which I put hours of planning and work, and finally finished just a couple of months ago, might now just as well be a wasteland, for my joy has been stolen.
I may never be the same again.
Ouch. That's terrible, and I'm so sorry to hear about it. If you don't want to go into any further detail that's fine, or if talking about it helps, that's fine too.
I've never had my heart broken by a love interest, but I've had friends walk away without an explanation, and yes, it hurts. So this must be worse. Dunno if that sounds compassionate or not, but that was the intention. I suck at this.
IMO it is much, much better to discover your significant other is a shady bastard before you get seriously engaged. I mean it. My mother discovered which sort of backstabbing bastard my father was once I had been born and there were mortages to be paid, at which point you can't really go through a divorce or anything, and are stuck with the bastard forever.
Sun Aug 02 2020 12:19:27 PM EDT from IGnatius T Foobar @ Uncensored Subject: Re: Caution, self Pity Ahead.Ouch. That's terrible, and I'm so sorry to hear about it. If you don't want to go into any further detail that's fine, or if talking about it helps, that's fine too.
I've never had my heart broken by a love interest, but I've had friends walk away without an explanation, and yes, it hurts. So this must be worse. Dunno if that sounds compassionate or not, but that was the intention. I suck at this.
I read it as compassion. You don't suck as much as you think.
Mon Aug 03 2020 11:40:31 AM EDT from darknetuser @ Uncensored Subject: Re: Caution, self Pity Ahead.I suck at comforting people too. I am probably a closet autist.
IMO it is much, much better to discover your significant other is a shady bastard before you get seriously engaged. I mean it. My mother discovered which sort of backstabbing bastard my father was once I had been born and there were mortages to be paid, at which point you can't really go through a divorce or anything, and are stuck with the bastard forever.
13 years, 'Nuff said.
We're working on a resolution. It will not be easy. Fortunately, there are no kids (I'm infertile) and the mortgage is paid.
2020-08-07 17:53 from arabella
Subject: Re: Caution, self Pity Ahead.
Mon Aug 03 2020 11:40:31 AM EDT from darknetuser @ Uncensored
Subject: Re: Caution, self Pity Ahead.
I suck at comforting people too. I am probably a closet autist.
IMO it is much, much better to discover your significant other is a
shady bastard before you get seriously engaged. I mean it. My mother
discovered which sort of backstabbing bastard my father was once I
had been born and there were mortages to be paid, at which point you
can't really go through a divorce or anything, and are stuck with the
bastard forever.
13 years, 'Nuff said.
We're working on a resolution. It will not be easy. Fortunately,
there are no kids (I'm infertile) and the mortgage is paid.
My mistake, sorry.
Well as long as you have in mind what you want to accomplish, it is not that bad, believe me.
Best wishes.
Oh 'bella! I'm so sorry!
If you need to talk, I've had some serious heartbreak, though... not after that kind of time. I mean my husband is sick of me, but not in an acute way... just... can't stand the whole thing anymore. Especially under Corona.
but I've been cheated on and treated like trash after falling in love...
2020-08-23 12:30 from triLcat
Oh 'bella! I'm so sorry!
If you need to talk, I've had some serious heartbreak, though... not
after that kind of time. I mean my husband is sick of me, but not in
an acute way... just... can't stand the whole thing anymore.
Especially under Corona.
Lots of people is in that situation. They get married and the relationship rots, but by the time you want to break out there are kids and mortages...